My first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting was Saturday night.
Beloved daughter was celebrating two years of sobriety and asked Mommy to come to the party. I was thrilled.
Whoa. It was a room full of tangible love. I’ve never experienced anything quite like it. Hugs all around.. genuine support.. people of varied backgrounds. I saw quickly there was no one stereotype for alcoholism–it crosses every barrier. But I think I already knew that.. my attendance at the meeting only confirmed it.
After spending 90 minutes with these people I was astounded. They were real.. no cop outs.. no pretending.. no excuses. It was an honor to be in the same room with them.. and be part of the ritual not only marking my daughter’s second birthday.. but the birthdays of many others. Some had 10 years in the program.. some 8.. or 6. I met one woman who had 30 years there.
After sweet daughter began the program, I read the AA Big Book. I saw how the implementation of these ideas helped and continues to assist and breathe life back into so many who would otherwise be dead or wishing they were. When I saw the positive roads this journey was opening up for my girl, I began to examine my own life. The principles are solid.. the success undeniable.
The people I met take nothing for granted. They seem to live each day in joy and possibility. And when they asked “Carrie’s mom” to speak to the room.. I couldn’t say no. Instead, I was honored.. and grateful. At first, it was because of what they’ve all done for my daughter. Then, it became personal. Being there was like having a warm blanket thrown around my heart. Rapt attention to what everyone said signaled passionate respect.
Funny how my children keep bringing positives into my life. When I was a young mother I thought I would always be the one supporting, helping and providing insights for my offspring. As the years roll by, and as I allow it.. my soul reaps the benefits of people, places and things I never would have thought of on my own.
My name is Sue Ann and I am not an alcoholic. But they invited me back anyway.
I intend to accept that invitation.